To a friend at Red Ribbon,

hey, I never thought a tear (or two..) would show up on that supposedly simple conversation-over-dinner we had. For the past weeks I’ve been wanting to drink…and literally be drunk. I must admit you were right when you said I was just trying to find that moment when I can just let it all out… As you said, it was just so damn hard to show others how you really feel… Drinking sessions are perfect venues to forget about being the happy, problem-free person you are and be soaked in the sad reality of life…it gives you the perfect excuse to shout at people, throw stuff, do silly things…which you can’t do when you’re sober because it’s just not the usual you. Somehow I wanted to experience being so drunk so that I can have that perfect excuse to not be me…and to escape the reality even for a while… I would love that… But yet again, I guess God has not permitted that to happen (at least not yet)…I just want to thank you… You were right… I don’t know how to articulate it…but somehow you got it all right. With a few words, how come you understood everything? And so… thank you friend.. because for the first time, i was able to understand it…and somehow I was able to let it out… For the drinking sessions in the near future, I guess I’ll just pass for now. :)