You win. Happy now? (aka "Sau Part 2")

It hasn’t been easy this past three months. So far it has been a rollercoaster ride - a combination of sometimes stepping one foot forward and sometimes taking out my worn-out white flag.

I just realized today that the past three months haven’t been the best times of my life, probably because I made it not one. I realized that I have been so blind and have led myself (and maybe other people) in a make-believe fantasy with a soon-to-be happy ending. Sorry guys, I guess the fantasy is over. The princess has just realized that the frog will never be her prince. There has just been too much expectation, too much effort wasted, too much pain, too much care. I guess now I am just afraid of the possibility of losing a great ********** just to kill the feeling. But I’ll really try to work things out.

Sigh...