about friends..

I know that I am not the most wonderful friend in the world. But lately, I feel that I am getting worse and worse… I have been receiving texts from old friends who were (hopefully still are) really close to me. And because I am not really loading up my phone with credits, I haven’t had a chance of replying or just letting them know that I remember them.

One case would be a friend named Lenny. For my blockmates this name might be familiar because she was the girl whom I was talking to during my Sun cellular days. (Don’t get me wrong. We are not “lovers” or anything. It just so happened that we were really close that time and she was one of the few people who also had Sun that time. She is also part of my High school barkada.) Lately, I have been a lot of quotes from her and then finally one day she texted me, “Jo, Hi! La lang, hehe.” And I really felt guilty because I couldn’t reply. And I can also feel her effort to reach out and somehow open the line of communication.

But sometimes I don’t know how to make two worlds meet. My world in Ateneo is far from my High school world and far from the life we got used to. Our world in High school was much simpler. We just hang out in a friend’s house and just make “chismis” all through the day. I can’t say that I don’t miss that life because I do. I really do. I miss my High school friends because when I am with them I can forget about anything. I can run away from reality and just be in a moment of bliss.

Second case would be another set of friends whom I haven’t been with these past months. ….

i don’t want to elaborate further….

*sorry, just thought it is not appropriate for them to read this instead of me telling them personally….