Am i happy?

We had this thing about fake laughs...

In one conversation with Charms (and Mon though she was so into her Theo notes):

Me: hahahaha (fake laugh)
Charms: Ang fake na ng lahat ng tawa mo!
Me: Siguro kasi hindi ako masaya... yung tipong galing sa puso talaga...


And true...I wasn't really happy these past few weeks. Of course I smile once in a while, but somehow i can feel that those were empty smiles..the kind of smiles which aren't coming from the heart. I really miss those times when i just laugh my heart out and feel that my lungs are about to burst because it cannot contain the happiness i feel.

I really need a reason to smile...