just to end it all..here's my side of story

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Elections.Gabay.Kythe.ANI.

A closure.

Was I hurt when I didn’t win?
Yes.

I was with tim, mel and james after the announcement of the winners. We ate at Poly’s and then went to Red Ribbon.. During that time, all we did was talk about the results of the elections and what would happen next. Mel kept on stressing the fact that I didn’t win. Maybe he wanted me to say something about it…perhaps let my emotions out? I don’t know.

My reaction? Mixed emotions.
For a while, I thought that I would really win. I had all these plans building in my mind about what to do next year, the changes that I wanted to pursue, how I would do them, fund-raising projects, when to plan, who the right people are, etc. I was a bit excited.
But then before the election, I had this feeling that I would not win. I don’t know why. Maybe sometimes people just have this gut feeling in them..i’m not sure. On the day of the election, I had my finance long test. So for a while, I forgot about the election.
When james told mel that I did not win, I just said to myself, I knew it.

Was I sad? Maybe. The funny thing was, I only had an hour of sleep that my brain was not functioning really well.. or maybe it was a shock? That’s why dedma lang nung kasama ko sila. But don’t get me wrong. Tanggap ko yung resulta ng eleksyon.

I think the only time that reality finally struck me was when james left mel and I at red ribbon. Mel kept on bugging me about it the whole time we were there. Nag-play yung kanta ni josh groban..i think it was You Raised Me Up. Sabi ni mel nakikiramay daw yung kanta sa akin dahil sad din. Nun ko lang ata talaga na feel yung effect sa akin ng result. (While I am writing this, naisip ko lang, ano kayang gustong mangyari ni mel? Bakit niya ko kinukulit about it? Did he want me to cry? : )

Losing? Tolerable. But what hurts me more is the fact that the people who are closest to me are the ones who doesn’t even believe in me. Why? I wish I knew…

2 votes? Wow. I’ll kill the two people who did not vote for me. Joke :)

I think losing is part of life. It is not the first time that I lose. I had my fair share of failures, rejections and sorrows.
Cliché as it may sound…the more important thing is to get up after every fall.

I do not even regret running. :). i am proud that I stood up for my own beliefs. :)

What will happen next?
It depends. :)

Stay or not? Claire, ano ba? Hahaha

Hello Kythe, Goodbye Gabay? :)
Or
Welcome back kambal? :)

Mas gusto ko ata yung huli.